Two Years and Separate Rooms

As of just a few days ago Ed and Eddy have been home with us for two years!

Eating has always been a thing, but they’ve grown more competitive about it. Ed just gobbles down whatever we serve him so fast! Poor little Eddy struggles to keep up. The other day Eddy had a serious anxiety attack. The food got stuck in this throat a bit so we patted on his back to help him he could clear it. He was totally shaking, and then threw up what appeared to be unchewed food. My husband then admitted to seeing whole food chunks in his poo the day before. It seems like he was eating his food too quickly, to prevent Ed from stealing his bowl, and he wasn’t chewing. So I had a bold idea, what if I make them eat in seperate rooms?

It was hard to implement at first, there was much confusion and anxiety. Lots of barking. Once I finally got it right though it worked like a charm. I let the boys out and then fill up each of their bowls. I put Ed’s in his usual spot in the hallway so that he can get at it as soon as I let him in. I keep holding onto Eddy’s though, and the two of us walk into the bathroom where I close the door and set it down. He wags his tail and eats slowly now that Ed doesn’t rush to steal his bowl. No more throwing up or puppy coughing since we’ve been doing this either! I don’t know why it took me so long, but I’m glad to have found an eating arrangement that makes my fur babies healthy and happy!

My Two Cents on Easter

I grew up Jewish and even during my brief stint as a Christian (Mormon) I never got Easter. What does the reproductive habits of bunnies have to do with Jesus?

For me, Jesus was probably a real person. Even now, over 2000 years later, he’s still making a huge impact on people but same as Muhammad, Moses, Buddha, and whoever else I am pretty set that he was just a slob like one of us.

So buy your kids peeps and put on some bunny ears. Easter is a holiday, in my opinion, for starting over. Never be afraid to start over, hit redo. It is never too late to start over and make things right. If there is one important thing to take away from this once pegan holiday I believe that is it, life is precious. Easy to create but not so easy to sustain so don’t take it for granted.

New Nanny Gig

So I’m still in search of a stable desk job but since all my experience is in childcare I decided to go back to what I know.

I found a position that’s two bus rides away, so that’s a pain, but it’s such a sweet family. Three kids, the youngest are three year-old boy girl twins and the oldest is six year-old boy. They are so sweet! The three year old boy is HYPER as hell but so cute! He kept hanging off me and jumping on me when I was reading to the older boy. We played cars, colored pictures, swung outside and ate dinner. The girl was a sweetheart too, happy to have another girl to play with I think. Plus they have a big friendly dog and a chickens outside! It’s a fun house to be at. There are toys on the floor and crayon on the wall, it’s a very kid friendly environment.

Working with children is surprisingly low pay, always has been thus I stopped doing and went to college. Ironic that it’s all I can find now… Since places seem more likely to hire applicants with current jobs though (which seems like a conspiracy to keep unemployment high if you ask me) maybe it’ll help me. I’ve narrowed my search down even more to holistic or therapeutic therapy type office receptionist (a receptionist job is easier to get and gives experience for an administrative position). That is still my goal just because as much as I love children and helping them learn to explore, I know my own physical limitations and I know that my back can’t take holding up toddlers forever. I ought to have an interview next week at an acupuncture office but we’ll see how that goes…fingers crossed but I’m thankful to have found something. Along with my volunteer work with the kindergartners in the SMART reading program, I feel like I’m back to having goals and a purpose. 

Time to Sculpt that Body

I’m not a believer in needing a “summer body.” Even with a belly woman should feel comfortable being comfortable. Last summer I rocked bikini bottoms with a tangkini to cover my feeding tube scar. I’ll most likely wear that suit this year too.

Yesterday evening my husband found a coupon for dim sum downtown though and wanted to take me on a date. I hurried to my closet to find something cute when I came across an old pair of pants, one that I haven’t fit for almost two years I think. To my surprise they are no longer even tight!

This encouraged me to start working out again. We pulled our old exercise bike out of storage (we got it in Monmouth but since we had an apartment complex gym in Independence we didn’t need it there). I used it for the first time today, turned on a trap workout mix from youtube to spin for 40 minutes. 

It’s a start, and also we had an unexpected trip to urgent care yesterday. The only one that takes our insurance is across town but my husband has been struggling more than usual lately with his asma. I have been hearing that is fairly common lately, air pollution is most likely to blame. Tbis just made both of us better prepared to take our fitness more seriously. As times get tough it’s important to be able at least to count on your body.

Dog Door Open

We’ve had enough sunny nice days back to back that I’ve started to just leave the dog door open all day again, and boy my dogs are happy for it. They bark all day long pretty much, got to tell those birds and squirrels who’s boss.

They really love the sun, it’s so sweet. The dry sunny weather makes walks and visits to the dog park much easier too. I’m not having to bath and/or towel them off every few hours anymore either, which is good for everyone. I get to spend a lot of time out in the yard with them again, something I am most thankful for. We play a bit of frisbee, they’re still not overly interested in returning the frisbee to me after I throw it but we are making progress. They’re happy to get to run around again and I soon noticed that the majority of their toys have returned to the yard.

Post-marital Relations 

Something I never really worried about, I don’t know if most people worry about but Buzz fead articles sure do, was sex after saying I do.

I’ve written about identifying as demi-sexual before and maybe that’s part of it, but the sex has always been good so I never really thought about it. Friends started asking about it the longer our engagement lasted, so I made myself think about it. What if we tried this? What if we tried that?

So we did, and it was just as good as always. It’s been a year and I still think about our week in Vegas. We just had an average room in the Excalibur, it was an amazing week. Just doing crazy shit with my husband. Tell anyone in Vegas your newlyweds and they go crazy!

So anyway, the honeymoon was amazing but it wasn’t based around sex like they sell it. In this past year together though even I can sense that the sex has improved. It’s hotter because we have nothing to hold back and it’s more pationet because we have no reservations. It’s only been a year but it’s still not work. I still have no doubts. I’m still so lucky to have found my best friend. 


I’m nervous today, I admit it. The Trump Presidency so far has been quite a ride. I mean, it’s hard to trust the news and I’m sure they’re being biased. I’m also sure HRC would have been just as bad in many ways, honestly worse in some. The Democrats and Republicans are after all on the same team. Still though, 3 months in and shits pretty real.

This healthcare thing though has been my issue since 2008. Obamacare had and has a lot of flaws, it does, but for my husband and I it has generously increased our quality of life. Trumpcare would kick us both off for having preexisting conditions. For me, my meds aren’t too expensive and I haven’t used the therapy thing in a while anyway. And dental wise, our plan covered us to go to a clinic anyway so that’s only like what $20 without insurance? But Medicaid does cover my husband’s  $600 inhaler, so that’s a pain in the ass.He does enjoy breathing. 

Congress was supposed to vote yesterday, but it wasn’t looking good for Trumpcare. I guess several of the GOP don’t consider throwing thousands off completely, hiking premiums, and giving million dollar tax breaks to the 2% (including our President) to be tough enough so they day they’ll vote no, as will all Democrats allegedly. AHCA also considers pregnant woman to be in that preexisting conditions category btw. Trump has told his constituents though that if they vote down the AHCA that ACA will stay in place, he claims he’ll move on to bigger issues. I suppose that’s the best we can hope for but Idk. It’s a BAD feeling, either way a lot of Americans will be screwed. Either way our government is not doing what’s best for us. While all this has gone on, internet providers have become able to sell our own personal info and hunters are now allowed to go after hybernating animals. That’s some really disturbing stuff. 

Everything that’s going on the least they can do is take those hands of my healthcare, which I consider marijuana to be a big part of honestly even though it is in no way covered. Hands off, laissez faire. Trumpcare, or OHCA is nothing more than a tax break for the wealthy rolled into a population control plan. Killing off the poor and sick, and I believe if you look closely you will see that it’s mainly a way to kill off those not contributing enougb to capitalism. That is if you’re poor, old and/or sickly you are not paying into the scheme since You can’t afford to. You can’t waist time shopping and so your own elected officials don’t want to protect your life. Population control, if they kill enough off they can continue living their extravagant waistful lives. It’s truly disgusting. 

UPDATE: it’s been pulled