The Barbary Slave Trade

The United States of America has been getting a lot of beef for being built on slavery, and there is no denying our history, but what about the history of other majority white countries.

All throughout history people’s have made others their slaves. Slaves for labor, slaves for sex, all types of slavery really. America actually has had far better race relations than most countries, but that’s beside the point.

Our founding fathers believed in freedom and that’s why our country exists. Freedom is written into our constitution. It’s the first amendment for goodness sake. Freedom of speech and religion.

Slavery was looked at differently and ideologically in olden times. Human nature must crave it to some degree because all cultures do it. That doesn’t mean it’s right but it can be explained.

Take for example the Barbary Slave Trade, which was made of slave markets on the Barbary Coast of North Africa. This includes the Ottoman provinces of Algeria and Tunisia and the independent sultanate of Morocco, between the 16th and middle of the 18th century. 1500 to mid 1700.

European slaves were acquired in slave raids on ships and by raids on coastal towns from Italy to the Netherlands, Ireland and the sw of Britain, as far north as Iceland and into the eastern Mediterranean. This wasn’t Vikings though at all, just your average European taken from their home. Chained, beaten, sparsely fed, and finally sold into slavery.

It’s Hard to Keep Up!

It’s almost like we’re no longer a first world country, which must be especially upsetting for someone who worked hard to come here and leave their third world home.

But anyway, these riots are about more than George Floyd. In fact, it’s not about George Floyd anymore at all. Which seems disrespectful to me but whatdoiknow?

As I wrote in a post 4 years ago it was inevitable. People get too taken advantage of they’ll push back, even if it isn’t logical. To me that doesn’t quite justify it though, look at all we as a species are doing in space for example? How can we fail so badly at home?

Somewhere between the Wu Flu and the unemployment and the race war I hope you are safe and healthy wherever you are reading this.

Happy June.

A total 180- WIP

When I started this blog, last time I had a laptop, the 2016 election was gearing up. Now we’re about ready for the 2020 election and I’ve come full spectrum. It’s completely unacceptable. We’re a feaking circus. From what I’ve read Obamagate is Watergate on steroids. All I know for sure is that I happily voted for Barry twice. How embarrassing but at least I never voted Clinton. Horrible. All the Democrats do is project. And apparently Bernie is one of them.

But more than anything, this slap in the face has made me realize that I don’t know anything about Russia, as a country. The Soviet Union.

I was pretty sold on Democratic Socialism until I ran across the Vladimir Lenin’s quote, “The goal of socialism is communism.” That made me question Bernie because if socialism leads to communism and democratic socialism is a means to socialism, then democratic socialism leads to communism, and all examples that we have practical data from have failed. We can argue about why they failed but ultimately they failed. It was a hard pill to swallow, that Bernie is just human after all. The red pill they call it?

Alas I dropped Bernie, but not his message. I remember his message before it became Orange man bad. And I’m embarking on a venture to learn about Russia and the USSR because I feel like I missed it in school. It’s not that I believe public schools are socialist propaganda, it’s just that I don’t think we discuss it enough. Students in American schools do not have enough discussion in general and I feel like that stunts the ability of students to absorb information.

So let’s find out about Russia. What is with the USSR? According to Wikipedia the Soviet Union, officially the Union of Soviet Socialist Republics (USSR), was a federal socialist state in Northern Eurasia that existed from 1922 to 1991 and was the largest country in the world. Nominally a union of multiple national Soviet republics, in practice its government and economy were highly centralized. So not too very different from the United States of America, which is a capitalist based central bank and democratic republic. The major difference I notice, without further inspection, is how long they lasted. 69 years vs 244 years and counting. We’re not perfect but we are still wheelin and deelin.

Anyway it’s going to be quite a show. We’re down to creepy uncle Joe vs the bigly clown, buckle up.

Day 62 of Quarantine

It’s still really strange. I haven’t worked since March 13, I literally got to work at the start of my evening shift and it was locked. There were a bunch of high school kids in basketball gear. Ready to use a Y ball and shoot some hoops, and since I had my name tag on they started asking me to let them in, which I of course couldn’t do. When I found my boss she told me we were closed down for Covid, a staff member was being tested. They ended up being fine but our gym has remained closed since March 13. The Y has been offering full day service to kids of members with essential jobs, like doctors and cops and I assume grocery store people too. Nationally gyms opened yesterday but in the state of Oregon our governor Kate Brown is not letting us open until June 1st at the earliest. Many of our athletic coaches have been having classes on Zoom and the main office has food programs and all the usual non-profit type stuff. And our store online too I guess, I bought some leggings and won a sweatshirt for the 2020 Staff Fitness Challenge! I’m happy about that they let us continue it even though most of us aren’t really working. Of course many people are. I got paid for March and April but from here on out no more paychecks. I probably still have to keep up trainings but that’s not many hours.

Playcare may reopen June 1st but as much as I miss my kiddos and families I think I might wait a bit longer to leave my house for things besides necessities and dog walks. Dr Fauci didn’t seem big on the phase one plan and I just don’t want to push it. I’ve been through way too fucking much in my life. With zoom meetings and trainings, plus sick hours it hasn’t been a problem. The Paycheck protection act and the stimulus check from President Trump are doing my husband, Ed, Eddy and I are doing fine. I’m on the sub list still so I could technically get called in if someone needs time off from the full day childcare. It’s like 6:30 AM to PM M-F regardless of whether or not Playcare reopens.

Until then I’m just home watching too much news and playing Star Wars Old Republic. And mourning the Weezer and Green Day concert we had tickets for in July. Serves me right for buying tickets so early I guess. It’s not so bad though, we’ve been lucky. My parents know a couple about their age whom passed away from Covid so I am aware how dangerous it can be. They worked at a dentists office and caught it there. Strange times. Stay safe and healthy and out of trouble, life can be such a pain in the ass but we’ll get through.

New Laptop

I’ve been gone a pretty long time, reason being my cheap ass laptop crapped out about the time I got married. I was just using my smartphone but now I have a great gaming laptop and I’m ready for more writing about adventures with my doggos. Ed and Eddy are still as crazy as ever. 8 years old and they love having a yard, as apposed to a tiny deck.

My new little spot is totally cute. It’s so funny how personal a work space becomes. I’ve had this really nice Italian leather mini arm chair that my dad got me when I was 16. I think my mom was jealous of it at one point and tried to steal it but that’s a different story. My chair is right the corner between the window and bathroom door. It’s perfect because I’m out of the way in the corner so it’s very quiet. Ed admittedly doesn’t love it because he’s so needy, this new Covid schedule has him freaked out as is.

Big 30 under quarantine

Luckily for me my home state isn’t doing anything too crazy. We’ve had a disturbing amount of deaths but apparently that’s a thing now. The pandemic of 2020 really sucks!

Before all this I had finally found a job I loved at the YMCA in youth development. I truly loved what I was doing, and I am very lucky not to have lost my job. I’m still on the books just not getting hours really, but we got a grant or something for disaster pay. And I have to keep up my CD trainings. I honestly do miss work way too much, I took so long to find something and it’s per-fecto.

So yeah my husband Eric and I just stay home together all day every day smoking weed and playing with our dogs. I am missing my little kiddos from Playcare (me and another staff watch up to twenty kids while their parents gym) just because some of them are so young they might forget me. Playcare is 2 months to 10 years so it’s quite a range. I’m missing the awesome people I work with too.

I’m on the sub list now but the Y is only offering free all day care to all ages for essential workers. Groups of no more than ten at a time, only four babies at once. We have a few different locations around town atm but the gym is closed. The gym teachers and trainers are having classes on zoom, which is also how we keep up on training now.

I’m sure we’ll start up again soon, but in the meantime Ed and Eddy are pretty excited to have the hubs and I both home all night and day. We play inside and in the yard. We don’t often go on walks anymore although I did take them yesterday. I forgot to wear my mask, and honestly I hate it. My lenses are big so they fog up and it suuuucks!

I always wear one to the store now ofcourse and I never go anywhere else so it’s all good. I suppose. The world is basically ending. Like end times style, and it’s weird. I have no other words, no adjectives at least. I feel really lucky to have my boys all right now. And family all nearby! Yesterday (4/23) was my 30th birthday and friends new and old (mostly old) just blew up my phone and email! It was amazing and I’m so grateful for my life.

So I decided that now is probably a good time to start up my documenting again. Vlogs are really what anyone whose anyone is doing but f*** that! I’ll just be writing about my puppos and I could probably post videos. No more politics, no more op ed, just pups! Not that my fat weenies are pups. They are 8 years old now, although we adopted them as Denali and Zion from Luvabul dog rescue in 2015 at age 3 years.

They were horrible to train and still aren’t what most would call good dogs, but they are so sweet and so loving. I don’t know what I would do without them. They are my ground ya know, they are truly just so funny. I love them! Ed and Eddy, so different but so connected. Ed is still running laps, be it in the yard or in the kitchen while Eddy is lazy as ever. Last vet visit he was fatter than Ed! So we’re making him exercise now, but the boys get so bored lately that they just have play fights throughout the day too! It’s hilarious! They’re just making the best out of it like the rest of us I suppose.

I’ll be sure to have updates about my doggos. 8 years old dachshund brothers and sure a handful, still are truth be told but they’re always my sweet boys!

Just Over Two

Just over two years now of really hardcore looking for stable employment. In the summer I got to the point of 2 or 3 interviews a week, mostly for office assist or medical assist jobs. I got temp work cleaning once in a while but I more or less stopped looking for jobs off of care.com pretty quickly because it became an uncomfortable situation for me. I’ve consistently been volunteering with a reading program for kids since September 2016, so I know I enjoy working with young minds but I don’t think I have the energy to watch them 24/7 anymore. I’ve started volunteering at the bloodbank recently too, both in registration and as a donor monitor, and I actually enjoy working in a hectic environment.

Originally I was doing it to gain experience in registration specifically, to help me gain experience for an assist job. I quickly learned that it was too stressful for me though. During my second week a donor passed out and we had to call 911, and my third week the computer system was down and everything had to be done manually. I love being a monitor though and do that almost every week. As monitor I keep the canteen clean and fully stocked with drinks and snacks, plus I can make people coffee if requested (and waffles on the weekend). Also though I get to talk to people about pretty much anything except religion and politics. I’ve had to politely change the subject of a man spreading church literature once and I’ve had to veer political conversations away from offensive topics on multiple occasions, surprisingly enough both MAGA people and anti-war activists donate a lot of blood. Oh and I had a donor complain to my boss once because I gave her a straw and straws are the root of all evil now.

Weather, work and hobbies are generally the safe topics although hobbies like hunting can be sticky. People really like talking about why they became a donor in the first place or how many times they’ve donated. There are two main types of donors, wholeblood and platelet. Platelets are what is used on victims of traumatic accidents, platelet donations saved my life and so I let donors know this. It usually gives them a boost of pride. Once in a while we get a first time donor who is really excited and asks lots of questions about the process. Which means I have to stay up on the latest. My shifts there are four hours long, most days go by pretty fast.

I was still really getting down on myself though despite my keeping busy. There’s college debt after all now that I have to worry about, and since my degree hasn’t been helping me to pay that I was at a loss. I can’t blame my philosophy degree specifically either, because my friends from philosophy have all found jobs before me. It’s had more to do with my lack of experience in addition to my physical disability than my degree type I think. Even for an entry level job there are just too many applicants for any company to be willing to give you a try unless you have years of relivant experience.

I decided to go out on a limb and apply for a teaching job. I don’t have credentials but I do have an education and daycare experience so I thought I’d try, and it worked! I’m a TA in an elementary aged program. So there is definitely room to grow plus it’s also a job that A- will be a career and B- sounds respectable when people ask. Next I would like to go back to school I think to pursue a graduate degree in child psychology. It’s really helpful to my psyche, having big picture goals. I’m happy that I found something that will allow me to do that. It keeps me focused which in turn keeps me on the straight and narrow. Plus I think that working in a position that takes on a role helping others is good for me, specifically with children. I still don’t want any of my own but working with them 5 days a week should fulfill that.

With my husband and I both working we’ll be able to go on vacation soon too! That’s really the main reason I wanted a job; I want to go on a real, far away vacation and not just back east to see the in-laws or a road trip a few hours from. Italy and Hawaii are both top of my list, and I’d like to see Niagara Falls. Plus of course a job will greatly help with the experiences of two dogs.

Coconut Oil

We took the boys in for an all around clean up; nails, anus, teeth, and coat; and they’re like new dogs! The place we’ve been taking them the last few times is such an improvement! They come back happy and looking good! And best of all, no cuts. Plus the staff seems to really have fun with them.

They always have good tips. Ed and Eddy have been scratching and biting a lot. Thankfully the groomer had some good tips. Since we first brought them home, the boys have showed that they clearly prefer lamb food. We always get the all natural grain free too, but apparently beef or chicken grain free is best. Also about a fourth a spoon of coconut oil should fix that skin right up! I think it will help to shine their coats too, and they seem to enjoy the taste.

Ye

It’s been pretty wild to watch unravel, all this Trump stuff. It’s pretty much all happened as predicted and the Democrats have completely lost it. We’d be lucky to see a blue wave but I very much doubt it will be what they are hoping for. Which isn’t a defense of Republicans btw, they’re just as crazy as always. But that’s the overwhelming part, the left just gets more and more outraged and they think they’re outrage alone is enough but then over on the right they’re getting exactly what they voted for. Not everyone is thrilled but at least they know what to expect. Our country is like an old married couple with absolutely zero communication skills and it probably won’t end well.

In my honest opinion all this drama with Kanye West is just a distraction, and it’s a ridiculous display of ablism at that.

He and Kim Kardashian have spoken to the President about prison reform which is wonderful. It is something that we badly need and it’s wonderful that such high profile people are addressing it, but it’s sad that the media is putting so much effort into derailing that conversation. They just want to make money off the press releases and keep the status quo. And the abeilist part is what really makes me mad, they egg Kanye on. Call him racist names on TV and focus on his instabilities rather than the issues important to Americans, all while knowing that Kanye suffers from mental illness in the form of bipolar disorder.

I have listened to Kanye’s carrying on a bit recently and while I will admit he takes things too far I wish that people would listen a little bit. While his incredible levels of narcissism are undeniable I believe the media is grossly distorting what he said about slavery.

In fact, what he is talking about is Nietzsche’s master slave morals which says that master morality values pride and power, while slave morality values things like kindness, empathy, and sympathy. So basically this mentality keeps the status quo because the slaves are taught not to value qualities that could lift them up. And of course this isn’t talking about literal slavery, it’s more of an explanation of structural racism. Instead of hearing Kanye out though and engaging in an academic discussion with him, media pundits call him a “token negro” or say things like Kanye is what’s wrong with black people. Honestly just disgusting things have come off CNN since that White House press conference with Kanye, things that you’d expect from Fox.

And the disgusting things those media pundits have said aren’t even true! Kanye West is not the first person of color to call out those accepting charities and inadequate standards from the west as prolonging their own suffering. Thomas Sankara, who was a Burkinabé pro-people revolutionary, Marxist, pan-Africanist and President of Burkina Faso from 1983 to 1987, did the very same thing and others have since too. Just last year in fact the president of Ghana, Akufo-Addo, spoke to French PM, Macron, about aid being a problem. A journalist posed the question, “what can France do for us (Ghana)?”

To this Akufo-Addo responded by saying,

“France will do whatever it needs to do for its own sake, and when those coincide with ours, ‘tant mieux’ [even better] as the French people say. But our main responsibility as leaders, as citizens, is what we need to do to grow our own countries.

We can no longer continue to make policy for ourselves — in our country, in our region, in our continent — on the basis of whatever support that the Western world or France or the European Union can give us,” he added. “It has not worked, and it will not work.”

I believe that because Kanye simply isn’t used to being questioned he doesn’t know how to defend his ideas and so the media is taking advantage of him. They are using his spectacle to distract Americans from what’s going on elsewhere.

Instead of letting ourselves be put against our fellow Americans we ought to be hearing each other out. We ought to be working together instead of using each other as a means. Name calling and finger pointing will get us no where, but if we listen it might be suprising how much more can be accomplished.

Better at Last

Eddy has had a long road; from slipped disk, to gastroenteritis, to pneumonia watch. He went from not being able to hold food down to being constipated. I’ve been taking long walks with him and sitting outside with him but he just wouldn’t go number two. We’ve had this struggle with him before, I believe it has to do with his low water intake but he has been doing better at that.

I called the vet after our uneventful morning in the yard and I’m happy to say that while I was talking to her Eddy pooped in the bathroom! He loves boiled chicken but it’s important to keep rouffage in the dog diet too. Little Eddy is finally back to being a healthy dog.